| Finals are almost over...I can sleep soon... |
[May. 10th, 2006|10:13 am] |
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| | Malice Mizer - Beast of Blood | ] |
Well its 10AM and I just finished my only final for today, I hope that the professor passes me. Its kinda to his disgression. Well that was #4 out of six, but the good thing is that all four of them were my engineering ones. That just leaves the two gen. eds. which shouldn't be too bad. But ya, I am in a serious lack of sleep with only about 12 hours for the last 3 nights. Today I only took a very restless 3 hour nap before this final, I might take a nap later.... or go to bed early...either way.
I can't wait to get home. I get to start making money again at meijer, I get to see my friends, especially Sean and Adrian, and I won't have a slow ass connection like it has been here the last semester. I am also hopefully taking american politics over the summer at ecc...3 week crash course...but it should be fine. lol.
PSO Update: I am in the lightriders team, however it might get split soon due to the fact our leader Persephany has not been on since I joined. Spike and I might make our own faction soon. My main character Zio II is now lv 80 and is getting beefier by the second. And OMG Adrian made a character on my account yesterday too! Her character Andariel is a lv 1 ranger. Too bad we can't play at the same time, she would have made a good compliment for quests and stuff. I can distract while she attacks from afar.. then I just keep healing myself as the monsters around me die. But unless she gets her own account...that isn't going to happen. damn.
PSU update: US release i think is 10/24...beta is getting great reviews for both the single player story, and online modes. I can't wait. Well maybe I can, its been push back a year already.
Well I guess thats all, ttyl! |
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[May. 3rd, 2006|02:43 am] |
h1>LJ Interests meme results</h1>
- beer:
I drink too much of this... - biking:
I should be doing more of this... - camping:
Too fun! - eating:
I do this a lot with the beer drinking... - etc.:
I like everything! - food:
I sound like I have a problem... - iron chef:
Ya, probably a big problem. - phantasy star:
My other obsession. - phantasy star online:
Yes, I love it. - phantasy star universe:
I can't get enough!
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| PSO Team and damn alarm! |
[Apr. 27th, 2006|10:48 am] |
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Well I forgot to update later on sunday, but here's what happened. I did get to eat my corn beef hash with my family, it was tasty. Later that day, I was playing PSO with a guy named Spike and after playing a good game of TTF (toward the future) on normal, he wanted me to meet his teammates. After meeting them I got invited to the team. Ironically, the team leader, Persehpone, has the lowest level out of all of us and I have the highest. I still do btw at lv 52. PSO has now reached a new level of fun with the team competiveness factor. I will have to post a pic of the team later.
Also, my alarm has been pissing me off lately, I missed philosophy and my group meating. Ironically, I dreamt of being in philosophy.
Well I must eat lunch now, ttyal. |
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| Periodic mental problems... |
[Apr. 23rd, 2006|11:04 am] |
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Friday, was a good day, Adrian came to visit, we had alot of fun, playing CS, guitar hero, and drinking of course. We also had the opportunity to play with the shelbys that i salvaged from the abandoned house across the street from Sean. They were funny to watch yell at each other. Anyways, we had a great night, I felt really good. The next morning she left and then it happened.... the low.
For those of you that don't know me, I was clinically depressed for about a year following my parents' divorce. I solved most of my issues, but on occasion if just feel down...I don't know how to explain it, but I just feel bummed out and alone. I also then tend to overthink things and throw myself into some kind of circle of sadness. Though it happens on rare occasions anymore (the last time being 5 months ago) the triggers seem to differ. I think yesterday was due to a lack of sleep, which usually makes me really mellow, but for some reason I was cranky all day.
Well I bothered Adrian alot yesterday with my problem. Looking back, I feel really bad about that and I hope she can forgive me, and maybe see that I never mean to take it out on her personally. Look, Adrian is one of my closest friends and love her very much, so it saddens me that I do such a thing every once in a while, especically toward her.
I need to find out how to beat this, not only for everyone else, but for my own sanity.
Also I had this nightmare again....
Its kinda like the idea of home alone..except your whole family is home. You are wide awake and you hear a weird noise and you go outside to check. You come back in a few minutes later to find that your mother is missing, your father is dead and his reasearch is missing. Thats where it ends. I have had this dream a few times lately...weird huh...
Anyways, I plan on having brunch with my mother and grandmother today. I will probably have cornbeef hash and eggs. That is probably my favorite breakfast meal. That and bisquits and gravy are probably my favorites. Now I am getting hungry, I hope they get here soon. :)
oh ya, btw I am feeling better today... |
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| New stuff... |
[Apr. 6th, 2006|06:36 pm] |
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Ya..ntm here...turned 21, got drunk....got a date with someone....I cant think of what else to talk about right now, especially since I am trying to study alot. The gauntlet of tests again...ttyl |
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| Can I shit anymore today? |
[Mar. 12th, 2006|08:35 pm] |
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| | Rammstein - Rosenrot | ] |
Ok I have been sick all day. I ate a shitload of chineese food and rice last night, and it is getting its revenge. I have had massive diarhea and an aching stomach all day, I was very friendly with the toilet, eventually i got a headache to boot due to not eating. I feel better now that I have some meds in me, but damn, I know my rice limit now. I know that it was the rice and not kate's illness, because the rice was coming back out.... sorry if that all disguested you. but this is the most I have been sick in about 3 years.
I will feel better tomorrow, and hopefully will have something to do... any takers? lol |
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| UPDATE!!! and I actually dated someone the right way and left at the right time |
[Mar. 10th, 2006|10:20 pm] |
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Well, for the last month I was dating Alice, the Junior transfer student from Duke whom resides on my floor. She is a nice girl, however we don't seem to be clicking, she doesn't have the same intrests as me, which is a problem. She is nice and attractive, but not the 'full package'. So I dumped her, before things got too involved. Besides, she doesn't love me and I don't love her, so why stay in the relationship?
So I am happily single again. Besides my heart is somewhat elsewhere. lol I will probably act on that.
I am doing well in school, I feel great! I am still on a good high...of life. And its spring break!!!
BTW my sister is sick with some kind of stomach flu, she puked at least 18 times today! she is going for a record. lol. I hope she feels better soon. |
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| why can't women be honest? |
[Feb. 6th, 2006|01:33 pm] |
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ok today, she told the real reason....she though that I was ignoring her durring the super bowl. well....I didn't even know that she came back from home the whole time. After explaining this, she was cool again and wanted to go to the dance with me again. Wow, why can't women just be honest the first time. I don't know if this will become a relationship, especially after all the semi-shit she has pulled and the fact she is alittle too compulsive for me. It might just become a good friendship. meh, its cool.
At least I am dating around and not just jumping into relationships. That is a good change for me.
Well I will talk to you all later.
YEEY STEELERS!!! |
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| DAMN!!! |
[Feb. 6th, 2006|12:55 am] |
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Well I did ask Alice on a date and she said yes, that was cool, until..... well.... she changed her mind. What really sucks is that it was after the super bowl, which my favorite team won, THE STEELERS!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO! So I wasn't too phased, but it did knock me down a little, oh well. She says we are not compatable and I actually agree with that. There are more women out there so....YEEEEY!!!
More tomorrow. ttyl |
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| An update!!! |
[Jan. 30th, 2006|01:35 pm] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
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| | Scooter - 'How much is the fish?' | ] |
Well It's been a while everybody! Here is some news!
Yeah Val dumped me on new year's eve. I am cool with it though especially after realizing how shitty her method of trying to break up with me was. Besides I also realize that she was right after all that it wouldn't work in the long run, and honestly I would have eventually gone nuts with all the moping and lack of calling.... I just hope that she gets better, and can feel good about herself. I also hope that we can still be friends, but she isn't really responsive to my occasional messages, so I guess she is not intrested in even that right now. Oh well, If she ever wants to talk I will listen, she still is a nice girl and hopefully still a friend.
1 month later.....
I am back at Northern Illinois after surviving last semester and I couldn't feel any better. I am attending all my classes, doing all my homework, and are doing well in all of them. yeey! I also have a study buddy now, a girl which transfered into NIU from Duke on my floor, she is also a junior and is in 3 of my classes, and also one which I took last year. Needless to say we see each other alot. This may turn into something, but I am not worried about that right now. All I am worried about is just trying to do the best I can this semester.
Also, If anyone has been folowing the NFL, my favorite team, the Pittsburgh Steelers, are in the Super Bowl, so I want all of you to cheer for them of course. I really want them to win, not only because I am a born and raised fan, but for Jerome Bettis who may be in his final game, and also for Coach Cowher who is the most winningist coach in the league but hasn't won the big one. I hope they win, and regardless if they do or not, I will be drinking alot. lol. It will be fun.
I am in the highest spirits that I have been in a long time. Usually I am only satisfied with either school, home, work, or my relationship. But right now I am satisfied with everything, eventhough I am missing a relationship, but being single is not bad and besides things look better everyday.
Well everyone, I will try to post more often. Hopefully at least once a week. Ok ttyl. |
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| Feng shui anyone? |
[Dec. 17th, 2005|12:04 am] |
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Ok I love the way I rearanged my room, but I have had a restless sleep every day since. I have no other explaination for it except for some kind of feng shui thing. I know nothing about it, and was wondering if anyone knew what is wrong with my bed placement. Maybe bad chi in that spot? I don't know. |
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| Bummed out. |
[Dec. 4th, 2005|09:24 pm] |
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Well finals start tomarrow, and I have to do well on them or I fail out of school. Ohhh the pressure. lol. I should be fine, I just miss everybody, especially Val, but whatever, I need to get through the next 3 days. I hope to visit everyone then. I also get to go back to work and make some money, yeey. I just hope that val is feeling better or I am going to have some lonely shifts. Seriously, I hope she is feeling better as does everyone else. If not, I will have to give her a backrub or something.
Speaking of backrubs, I need one too. My muscles are shot, I played some football in the snow and I am just in alot of pain. This also didn't help my already fucked up back. Oh well It will feel better tomarrow I bet.
What are the nice chopsticks made out of? I am thinking about buying myself a nice pair. I like sushi.....
meh what else.... I don't know. How about "FUCK AKRON" again. That sucked.
Oh yeah, I also want to loose some weight this winter. So keep my ass away from bad foods.
Well thats it for now. ttyl all. |
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| Cars!!! |
[Dec. 1st, 2005|01:05 am] |
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I will save up for a car, possibly for this summer. So what kind do I get? A compact, a sport car, a van, a bus, a firetruck, a hurse? I am open to suggestions. Keep in mind I need a cheap one too. lol. I am poor. |
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| Ouch |
[Nov. 30th, 2005|07:28 pm] |
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I really need to see a chiropractor. Since satruday at work, my neck and back have been badly misaligned. Does anyone know a good one in Elgin/South Elgin? |
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| I hate myslef |
[Nov. 28th, 2005|06:54 pm] |
I hate myself, I do not deserve to be called a human being.
I am cruel and cold.
I do not deserve my girlfriend or my friends.
I am worthless. |
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| Hmmmm need help. |
[Nov. 7th, 2005|12:52 am] |
I need to break my somewhat pervertion habbit. I can kill it somewhat, but I need help in tougher situations.
I need an idea, like eating a cookie when I think about something perverted.. but more on a mental scale.
I don't want Val to feel disrespected by my perverted comments/actions. I love her alot, and this does have her down a little because I do it too much. So, of course I want to fix that. Its not much to fix, I just need to adjust. |
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| Nipple piercing update. |
[Nov. 3rd, 2005|01:06 pm] |
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Many people aparently think I should get my nipples pierced, so I probably in the near future will. But what kind of drugs should I take before it and what kind of nipple ring should I get? |
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| What is up with lj? |
[Nov. 2nd, 2005|01:37 pm] |
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What is this new crap? It puts all friend info on one screen. Does this seem to be too complex for anyone? Just want to know.
I am also looking for answers for the nipple piercing question...... I need input or I will not do it.
I will talk more later. cya. |
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| WOW an update!!! |
[Oct. 26th, 2005|06:12 pm] |
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| |  curious | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Random techno | ] |
Sorry I haven't updated in a while so I will start with this question: Should I get my nipple/s pierced? Val brought up the idea last week but I said no. However, since I have been walking arround in public with my nails painted black for the last few days, I have had the realization that people don't really care. Now I know my mom would probably kill me, but I just wanted to know what everyone's feelings on this were. Also, if not the nipple/s, where else? Don't even bother saying that I should get a Prince Albert. I am not deforming "my beautiful penis"(Kearns). ok toodles.
References:
Kearns, Sean. August 2004. watching his first hardcore porn. (out of context of course) |
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